If you violate again and go away for three years, your life will be forever altered. Take it from an expert. I spent 4 1/2 years in the Oregon State Hospital--and I was never convicted of anything. Here, nobody has charges ike yours go away. Ever. That was and is a gift from heaven. Why not take advantge of that gift, instead of throwing it all away?

If the problem is your addiction stuff, what does your recovery program look like? Sponsor? Meetings? Working the steps? I ask this because, if you are an addict and are not working a rigorous program of recovery, you will just continue to relapse again and again and again. It's guaranteed.

Sending you positive vibes. Try to think about spending three years in prison. Let that settle in. Is anything worth that?