@Thunder Bow well I don't think I was whining. I think I am frustrated by my situation and my dream definitely reflects that.

@bpcyclist If I could move to a larger city than the city I live in (which has 3 million people) and have a place to stay while I looked for work that would be ideal. But, I don't even have the savings to move. I already tried living in Chicago and worked a job there that ended when the office closed down. The problem with large cities like Chicago or New York or San Francisco is the cost of living is outrageously high. I don't know if moving would open me up to more opportunities only because I can't change my work history on my resume. Those mistakes will follow me no matter where I'd move to. If that makes sense. So, that's where the core of my frustration comes from -- past employment mistakes.