Don't think of yourself as overweight ,think more like you are supposed to be 5'4" but didn't get the memo in time . Sexy is not a body type or weight range it's a feeling ,and what does Spock say "feelings are irrational" so either welcome to irrational or welcome to the "on the mend" list , if you have a huge copay i'm sure your spouse wouldnt mind saving a little more of hus wage to ensure you can pull this trip off . A treatable medical condition that's being treated ,isn't the end of the world ,talk to your spouse don't sweat the details alone , a relationship is give and take ,your not meant to suffer both physically and emotionally alone , if you were you would still be single and dating an endless string of people who didn't appreciate you .