You are a Kind Soul, very much so, @Discombobulated. I am sure W is watching you from Up There. You've certainly did everything you could to make Him happy and make the last years of His Life less painful. Take pride in that. Feeling Sadness, or even Grief, at moments like this is perfectly Normal so let it all out and vent if you need to. Thank you for everything You did - for both Him and Other People as well! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Discombobulated, Your Family, Your Friends, W, and ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!