I am without a therapist and I am unraveling emotionally right now. I just need some supportive replies and reassurance.

I feel that nothing is going right in my life, but mainly at work. I wrote about it in the work forum, but I really f-ed up, and I feel like such an a-hole and such a f-up.

I am really down on myself. Sometimes I am far too arrogant and I HATE that.... it's not a pretty side of myself.

And I am FAR too emotional.... I react strongly when I get upset I don't like that about myself either. I reacted really poorly to my husband last night and I feel like total crap about it. He's being a bit more distant from me today as a result. And I feel terrible. I've caused that to happen. And I know as a result that he won't be physically intimate with me tonight like we had planned. That happens when I've upset him. And it's ALL my fault.

I guess I just feel really lost without a therapist..... I am in between therapists, and I just want someone to tell me I am doing OK, considering all the challenges I face at the moment.

Maybe my toxic work environment has finally gotten to me. I don't feel like my normal, positive happy go lucky and understanding self. Typically I have a very positive outlook on life. Right now I am the opposite. Everything is colored negatively. It's like I cannot escape black and white thinking.

Wish I could have gone to therapy today. But I cancelled with my old therapist because she's causing me more harm than good, I feel.

Anyone have any suggestions on how to ground myself again? And feel better?

Maybe I need a guided meditation or something... or a long walk outside. It's warm out today.

Thank you kindly.