I’m really low and depressed right now and feel SO alone with it. I’m angry at myself mainly. I’m behaving in ways that are not my standard. So I’m down on myself. I really just want to die and leave this earth. I’m not unsafe. I just want to disappear. And I have no therapist right now (in between therapists), which is not helping me whatsoever. Normally I'd be able to make an emergency call and talk. I feel so very low.... I don't know how to cope and manage my low feelings.