Hey there thanks for the reply haha, does ur sound sweet? I was so afraid to post this because I’m afraid it makes me seem crazy. It reminds me of when I was a little kid and was sad that characters from my favorite video games weren’t real...

I’m not in therapy—working on that! I am a full time student and have been working part time as well this past semester. I’ve decided to focus on school because this is my final semester, so I just left my job. My biggest hobby outside of creative stuff is exercise, for sure. I run most days of the week and try to get into the gym to lift a few days too.

I guess I was wondering how insane/weird this is... I do ok at creating deep connections with people but I rarely meet people who are willing to make deep connections, and I guess that makes me very lonely. My girlfriend is not really a ‘deep diver’ and while I love her it makes me feel alone. I have two friends that are also like this which is helpful, but one is a bit immature and hard to relate to sometimes, and the other is kind of unstable. Not like I don’t have my own downfalls!

I think, at the heart of it, I’m looking for an adult connection that’s similar to the one I had with my mother—I was an only child and she was a single parent, so that’s made out bond really intense and difficult to find elsewhere in other contexts. Not that I’m looking for a mother, but a relationship of that kind of depth/intensity. Does that make sense? And I can’t find it.