Hello --

I am feeling all crumbly, rather like a mosaic that is starting to lose little bits.

I feel as if I go through life this way. There are some parts of me that are rather pretty little bits of glass and such. But mostly the pieces don't seem to fit together very well or make a good pattern.

And just when I get to a point where I think perhaps I've fit things together in a way I can like (see recent thread @ becoming a Poohbah in General Forum) -- I start to go all crumbly again.

Projects that I thought I might have energy to take up again and complete go back into the dust bin. I lose energy. It's 6 p.m. and I feel like it's 2 a.m. I feel as if I am my own worst enemy.

I am not seeing a therapist right now -- the one I used to see in S. Florida is rather far away and I felt as if she was reassuring but that we were just drifting on, in a pleasant, comforting haze but not really accomplishing anything anyway . . .

And I just feel as if something happened, but I'm not sure what, and I started going all crumbly again . . .