Just got done with a pretty bitter argument with my folks that erupted quicker than usual following a pile up of stressors coming from life with my parents. My parents and I have a close relationship and actually share quite a few of the same interests: music, hunting, our pets, the outdoors, etc but they have undesirable quirks that I would not tolerate in my friendships or a future romance. My dad has a quick temper, and my mother is blunt and jumps to conclusions. Both of my parents as a sad result of the jobs they just left are intolerant of my habit of needing extra space following a fight, calling such behavior “pouty”, further exacerbating stress following a conflict.

Most of my current unhappiness has come up when this online job that I love and have found perfect did not obtain enough funding to continue until sometime in the next month or two. But my woes with my folks have started before that and just became more noticeable with me not having projects with my job. Dad got upset when I lost a cross that belonged to my grandfather that his elderly mother recently gave me...Mom chastised me for getting triggered by social media posts celebrating marriage after a long time of being pressured...She also criticised my tone after I was out of a job and she talked about switching to another job when I was not ready to discuss it and got unhappy, but I was able to point out her behavior later on and draw boundaries. Last night which has left me discombobulated all started when Dad dropped a cuss bomb when our dog ran around the house, and he knows that mom and I hate swearing even though he has actively tried to reduce such words. But when I spoke up that he shouldn’t have said this word he was annoyed I brought up the topic. Then when the topic came up again this morning, once again I was degraded by being called “pouty” that I didn’t want to be around my father when he was angry. This was all resolved by agreeing that I was too confrontational with my dad when I tried to reason with him and that my dad already knew that he behaved in the two manners that deliberately make me uncomfortable.

Like I said I love my parents. They go out of their way to show their love and care. But at the same time I’m sick and tired of living with them and putting up with their crap. But I also feel trapped since the most recent counselor I saw is now 3 hours away from my current location, my parents just retired so I have to consider their finances. I am a person who loves solitude in a pair who like constant time with each other, so I would like to get my own place, which I don’t know if I can do since my job is based on grants.

Done ranting about how crappy life is at the moment. What should I do?

1. is it possible to move to my own place without a full time job?
2. Am I wrong for needing to process my feelings even though they don’t look pretty at the moment?