Also just want to say I don't think there's anything wrong with the way you are SoSorry. I was coming from a place of "if it bothers you and makes you feel bad." I'm glad other posters Blanche and bpcyclist are able to relate. I myself can relate but its more in a dysfunctuinal way, ie I haven't met him in real life so I'm sad about it. I don't write my own characters. I do feel sad about being lonely / disconnected though! I particularly used to feel romantic loneliness a lot.