I'm struggling so much to keep going. Everything is building up on top of me and I keep thinking to myself isn't a week long enough..I've made it a week with out cutting isn't that long enough..yet I keep holding by a string. I know I'll be okay if I can make it through play week and get the one act festival over with alot of my stress will be gone. I just feel like such a faluire and I don't know why. I want a shoulder to cry on but I've pushed everyone so far away that I can't. I feel so weak..I hate to cry I hate it so much and all I've done today is cry and cry. I'm just so tired of trying just to fall down again and again. What's the point of it all? I'm a faliure at school, a faliure as a stage manager, as a daughter, as a sister, as a friend, as a human being. I hate these emotions..I really do..I hate tears and I hate all this anger in me. I'm sorry..I'm really sorry everyone..I just had to get this off my chest..I have no where else to go..no where else to run to except here.