Is everyone welcome to post here?
I’ve been feeling really terrible. Can’t stop the intrusive and racing thoughts. Depressed and restless. Took seroquel, but the thoughts continue. SI and SH thoughts. Im in no imminent danger. I can’t keep my mind on what I’m doing. My wife’s understanding only extends so far. After so many years, I still don’t think she understands the depth and reality of what I live with. Or maybe she just gets burned out.

I don’t really have anyone I can talk to in a completely transparent way. I’ve been thinking about finding a therapist for that. Who knows. Upped lithium, but that will take days to build up in my system. Took way too many Xanax last week and I’m running low. Been trying to go easy on them, but they’re the only thing that help quickly.

I’m sick and I know it. I wish I got a little more understanding at home. Apologies for the long post.