Hi Pavel. I am deeply sorry you are experiencing this inner conflict. The question you pose is really interesting. You have an unrelenting desire to be superior to be seen as important. I notice how all of your dreams and fantasies are directed at gaining the validation from others, their approval of you. That’s when you’ll know you’ve made it. You’re the best.

The best way to overcome these is maybe accepting who you are right now. With all your strengths and flaws. Accept yourself without having to put any labels or titles. You are who you are. Learn who you are. No more masks or imitations. Success comes from finding who we are and being that person so richly and fully. It doesn’t matter who is watching.