I'm not sure if I can offer any advice here, but I can offer my understanding. When we give love, that creates a permanent bond that isn't easy to cast off, even if the other person only gave us pain.

A lot of us were raised with the message that we aren't good enough no matter how hard we work, no matter how much we give. I'm struggling to challenge these beliefs too that have fueled my low self-esteem, depression, and anxiety. Not to mention so many unhappy and exploitative relationships.

You seem to be one of the most loved people on PC, Fuzzybear. Please listen to splitimage when he/she says you are definitely good enough.