Do not hate yourself. You are trying very hard and if some people in your life don't like the way you are, do not worry about it, it's just a reflection of themselves. It's them they don't like not you.

Some people have so much hate inside of them that they want to make everyone around them miserable but in the end, they are the one who are most sadder because they have never find love. They have never learned to let go and move on.

I hope you are feeling better.