I guess that info would have been helpful ;-) Yes, I'm in therapy (my session today probably was what set off a lot of this), plus I'm taking some medication, although we're still trying to find the right dosage (not the first time I've been through that routine before either).

The root cause...where to begin? In short, the depression was set off when the new job I took turned out to be anything but the dream job I thought it would be. I was put on a project outside my skillset, outside my knowledge base with a difficult client and difficult boss (although all the senior folks thought the boss was great). When, after a year of truly trying to improve, do good work, meet expectations etc., I got a poor review (the frst time in my life), I asked to be moved to another project that I thought would be more suited to my background and skills. I was told no because there was a business need for where I was. Two months later, I broke down crying in front of clients at our most high-profile event and couldn't stop crying. I was (and still am a little) mortified. That's when I knew I couldn't do the job and improve my health at the same time and am now on paid leave . My boss was not exactly supportive, but there was nothing he could do about it. His last words to me were "Good Luck." He never said, "I hope you fell better," or even attempted to be empathetic. He never was in all the time I worked for him, so why I thought he would then I don't know.

Underneath all this is just general self-esteem issues that have never been resolved despite past therapy. Add to this having to look for a new job and desparetly wanting my sister's shower to go well, and life's just stressful.

Aren't you glad you asked for more info." ;-)