I’m going to call my pdoc tomorrow to make sure she approves me increasing the Wellbutrin we decreased when I was manic back in Sept. I feel myself slowly slipping into a depression the last few days...I feel so incredibly down and unmotivated. And all I want to do is sleep. I literally have been sleeping half the day. We didn’t go to church yesterday only because I couldn’t get up and my church doesn’t start until 11:45. Then today, my daughter conned me into going to the grocery to get her Alfredo and I went with makeup from yesterday smeared all over under my eyes and without brushing my teeth. I didn’t even care. And I haven’t showered in what’s about to be 3 days. And yes, I know that’s disgusting. I hope I can turn this around quickly. I am going to try to get in with my therapist too. We spaced out sessions to 3 weeks because I’ve been doing so well but there’s no way I can wait until the end of January. I’m hoping she can fit me in Wed or Thurs as a matter of fact. Anyway, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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