I can't report anything about genealogy as I am adopted.

I will just throw something out there:

NO one is promised tomorrow. There is only the present. And that's all there ever is. The past is unreachable and the future has yet to come. I can see how you might worry about having a "meaningless" life and it might seem like a looming darkness, but there is so much you can do in this life.

Please remember that you make your life what it is. It is not meaningless if you find a way to enjoy it.