You really hurt me today. You acted like my abusers. Then again, your anger brought out honesty. You are right. After 3 years, I have not changed. I cannot get any better and haven't tried hard enough. I need to quit and go back to my old ways of avoidance. I will be cancelling for Thursday and yes, I am avoiding you. I need the time to get my head together and prepare myself to quit. There is no sense in continuing when you are making me as miserable as them. I know you will be relieved. I know I really pissed you off today. I'm sorry. I guess you can't see how hard it is for me. We can both cut our losses and move on. Thanks for the help you did give me.