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Sweetie you can't inflict if ppl want you and we want you here
Angie
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Amy says hi and feel better soooooon

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Thanks and hi to Amy. I haven't felt this low in as long as I can remember. I'm crying uncontrollably. I'm being pulled under so fast that I can't stop it and right now I'm not sure I want to stop it either. I'm sooooooo depressed. I don't think I could be any more depressed than I am right now unless I ended it all, which right now might be a good idea. I'm sooooo tired of all this pain. And I'm so scared my phone's going to ring. My mom always calls me about this time and I always hide these moods from her so she doesn't worry about me. I just keep falling and falling at an alarming speed and I can't stop the tears and I can't pull it together for her either. Not this time. I'm too far gone. So, I'm not going to answer the phone. I just want to die. I hurt so much.