So... here we go Monday is Feburary 14th, we all know what that means! Huge romantic pressure on everyone with a significant other and the feelings of worthlesness of those who don't seeing all the flowers, cards, kisses, and expensive dinners given to those who are blessed enough to be loved. I didn't hate it so much untill I broke up with my first serious boyfriend 2 years ago. This will be my second year alone on this day, and wow do I feel like crap about it. It seems that EVERY relationship with people that has clicked the person leaves within a few weeks yes the past FOUR relationships... ok Rich goes to Australia for a year to study, Chris#1 leaves for Switzerland for the summer, and comes back with a new love of his life, Adam leaves for florida, and now Chris#2 is leaving for Germany for six month ON MOndAY!!! how lucky am I??? Yup yup yup I'm doomed to die alone!!! or at least that's how I feel at the moment, why can't anyone see how beautiful I am or how fun I am or how wonderful I am??? and now, I've made myself cry... I knew I would. Dear god... why do you hate me so? what have I done to deserve this pain, why was I raped so that when I DO get close to someone I freak out, cry and those people run away from me...