It's 3am. I haven't even tried to sleep yet, but I'm going to. Yes, I've been online all night trying to get to the bottom of something. Trying to understand why I did what I did and think what I think...im dealing with a crush, a heartbreak from before marriage. I dunno. Not the right place to go into it, if I even should anymore. Going to see if I can stop talking about it for awhile and see if it goes away again. I've been trying to distract myself with superficial crushes on celebrities. Actually, I may have accidentally developed an actual crush. I dunno. It'll probably fade with time. But that heartbreak from the past. Why cant i get over it?? Actually, there were others, come to think of it, but this was the most recent and one that most emotionally affected me. Sigh! Alright sleepy time! Hope you all get some good sleep too!