I'm sorry you are experiencing a lot of fear and distressing emotions over this. I can see why it would be distressing. We come to rely on our T's. It seems like you have had a good relationship with this T for a while now, is that right? It might be worth going to once every other week for now, and waiting for a slot to open up for every week. I know that is hard. Maybe discuss with your T what other coping skills you have and other supports you have that can help you with the transition. I don't know where you are or what your DX is, but your work might be able to do an accommodation for you under the ADA. That is always difficult, I know, because it means revealing to your employer that you have x issue. But it might be worth checking into. See what your T has available first, and then you could always ask for the accommodation if that is a route you are willing to take. Some workplaces are very tolerant of medical/mental health issues and other's aren't. So you might want to feel your way around the organization and see how it is. But something to consider. Wishing you the best. HUGS Kit