Hi everyone,

I am in the worst place I have ever been in my entire life.

I need to find a job within the next two months, or I will be selling things and in desperation mode.

But I am also dealing with immense trauma without the support that I need to heal..

It is devastating.

I am thinking of suicide ALOT lately, and I cannot describe how painful it is to be alive, but I wanted to ask the community for suggestions about what I can do to move forward.

I am spending my days curled up with my teddy bears under blankies. It is super comforting and helps me to heal from ptsd, but I don't exactly know what to do to move forward anymore. It is like I am stuck in perpetual trauma and I continue to attract abusers into my life and every therapist I see manages to make my life a living hell.

What do I do?

Thanks,
HD7970ghz