I did the 5th infusion today. I'm actually starting to get used to it. This time they bumped me up to 75. I found out they start you out at 35, so they were upping it every time I went in. I'm not sure what the unit of measure is - I think it's in micrograms. This time I definitely felt like I was having an out of body experience though it doesn't last long. I am starting to feel better. My mind is not so cluttered anymore. I can think straight without a lot of negative emotions weighing me down.

Right now my life is a wreck. I doubt my marriage will last much longer. I can't handle fighting anymore. I'm not going to fight with him, I'm done with that. It would be better if my life were better I'm sure.