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Originally Posted by spikes
I'm addicted to hypomania too. A former pdoc of mine said that (hypo)mania has similar effects to the brain to doing cocaine. No wonder it's addictive. It has helped that I found some stability with no depression and usually mild anxiety. When I was rapid cycling a few years ago I would intentionally trigger hypomania just to feel that high only to crash a week or so later.
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Same here. I remember when I was first googling around to figure out my symptoms I actually stumbled upon some web pages about cocaine because the effects are so similar.
I never used to notice it, but in hindsight I think I was (am) also "addicted" to hypomania. I feel like I need it to accomplish the things I want and perform my best at work, or at least to compensate for the depressions with some bursts of high performance. When I'm not hypomanic for a long time I get really anxious and afraid that it's gone forever and I feel like I can't keep juggling my life without it.