I agree with @here today about Applying for Disability if you can. I am so sorry for what you're going through! I hope things will improve soon for You! Please keep us updated and keep applying for as many jobs as you can! Are there any social services that may help You find something? Even something simple, at least to start getting some money. Don't Lose Hope! I am sure You can do it because You're strong! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @HD7970GHZ, Your Family, Your Friends, Your Doctors, Your Pdoc, Your Therapist, Your Nurses and ALL of Your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!