Why do drug addicts enjoy drugs? Because it feels good of course.

Those of us with Bipolar get our Hypo/ Mania and it’s often a glorious feeling , we can do a hundred things at once, colors are vibrant and they even sound amazing. We need less sleep we have more time to soar, our thoughts expand things we normally couldn’t imagine , we are smarter, lighter and holy hell its as good if not better than sex.

What happens when the buzz wears off for a drug addict ?? They chase down more of it... maybe start making some poor decisions , lapse on self care ? Effects family , friends and jobs. They need another fix.

We start to lose Hypo we often push to stay awake, use caffeine , energy drinks , certainly have stopped our meds, why would we want anything to stop the high?? we try whatever we can think of to maintain feeling so fabulously alive and brilliant and knowing much of the worlds secrets.

What do drug addicts and Bipolar hypo/manic people have in common ?? We will all crash and burn and leave a path of destruction in our wake. We will need to make amends, we will have to take responsibility for any health problems we have caused , possible legal issues , hopefully we still have our jobs whether paid or volunteer. Saying I’m sorry does not always make things all better again . Family and friends can get burned out over time emotionally and financially.

So would I like to stay at my fun Hypo level ??? Sure I would, is it fair to my husband , family and friends to basically want to stay high because it feels good to me?? Of course not , while we think the colors are vibrant and the world is Shiny , we often can’t see what we are talking doing or being for others ... our partners still need us level minded, our children need us capable to care for them , our friends might get tired of being blown off or feeling used, our bosses still need the work done.

When Hypo/mania hits whether we realize it or not but we get selfish and don’t even notice.

I owe it to my husband, family and friends to be the best stable dependable person that I can be. I love them, they deserve the best me possible.

Will I struggle with hypo/mania and depression ? Yes of course but we all have to learn our triggers and subtle things that usually lead us down a road that might look so inviting .. but it’s about being proactive in taking care of ourselves. Listening to others if they ask you how your doing because they are seeing xyz happen right in front of them .... and then it’s take a look at yourself and make better choices. Call your Pdoc or T or whoever you need for help.

Anyway this is just my thoughts on Bipolar and our responsibilities to ourselves and others