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sarahsweets · Jan 16, 2020, 05:01 AM

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Originally Posted by thought_pool

Hey guys,
How is everyone?

At the close of 2019, I had this powerful urge to forgive my boyfriend for everything he put me through during our relationship. I was doing it for myself and for my sanity; Holding the grudges of everything from the past was ruining who I was. Once I forgave him, I felt a huge weight lift from my soul and I felt I was happy-- this lasted a few weeks.

Do you mean forgive him and stay with him or are you talking about forgiveness post-break up?

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Recently, negative thoughts have increasingly become stronger within my own mind, just constant reminders of the past and little nagging thoughts that say "You were never good enough, that's why he cheated on you. That's why he flirted with xyz. She's slimmer than you, she has more friends, etc."
I was able to push these down by reciting my own forgiveness mantra but that doesn't work anymore. I just feel numb now.
Exercising is a temporary relief but everything just comes back.
I don't know what to do to help myself anymore.

I love my boyfriend immensely and I don't believe that I'm unhappy with him or our relationship. He's been wonderful and there for me.

So I understand this right: Are you saying he cheated on you and you stayed with him? What reasons did he give for the cheating and how do you know its still not going on?

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Why does it feel like I still want him to voice his regret? He readily apologizes without any ask, he's truly changed. I don't regret my decision to forgive him.

What can I do to change as much as he has? I don't want to hold us or myself back anymore.

I know I may not have the right to an opinion on this because I have never been cheated on but what brought about his change? Was it because he got caught? (did you catch him or did he tell you?) Did he break things off with the other person?