I am sorry for your struggles, LilyMop. I really relate to what you wrote. I have sort of decided that I am just going to accept whatever comes my way and stop trying to fight for a reality that just isn't mine anymore. I am much more at peace since making that decision. The reality is, I am really sick a lot of the time. That's what I do. I be bipolar. That is the deal. For me. Now.

I hope you feel bettr soon. I do believe there is peace in acceptance.