It WILL take time to rebuild your Trust in Him, @thought_pool. Don't worry, it will happen at some point, just give it your best effort like you're already WONDERFULLY doing! I was wondering, perhaps you may want to consider Couple Counselling? Even though he is at fault in this case, perhaps Couple Counselling may be helpful in rebuilding the Trust that you used to have. Give it a thought if you haven't already! Individual Counselling may be an option as well if you aren't already doing it. In any case, take it slow and easy. If you're feeling bad, consider talkgin about ALL of this with Him. Hopefully he'll listen to what you have to say and understand what you mean. Perhaps you'll be able to work something out together. Communication is REALLY important in EVERY relationship! Keep trying your best! Remember that you are ALWAYS THE STRONGEST! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @thought_pool, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!