There has been a lot of emotional manipulation, harsh words, cold attitudes, broken promises and lies on his part and a lot of rage, sadness and threats of leaving on mine. I don't want to sound prideful but I really have done my best to be the best partner I could, having learned from past failed relationships. Truly feeling like this was the man for me, I presented my best self.
I stayed because we have a deep connection to each other, regardless of what we've been through. He had a lot of growing up to do and unfortunately, I had to experience it and I felt that I was the one to push him through that transition.
He is truly my best friend and a wonderful, kind hearted person. The disgusting, mean parts of him lasted for just one year. After he made his mistake, he got better but not completely because I don't feel as though he was totally honest with himself until we went to counseling.

I understand that those thoughts are the results of what was done to me-- but isn't it in my own power to change my narrative?
That's what I'd like to learn.
I know that I am better than what I am telling myself.

I feel safe with him, emotionally and physically and am confident he would never do this again. I've never seen him cry so much before.