So after giving myself a couple of weeks to allow the emotions to settle I sent him an email yesterday explaining exactly how hurt and upset (without being accusatory or angry) I was about what had happened in hope that it would somehow help with closure. It hasn’t. I’m still wanting him to suddenly get in touch to check that I’m ok and tell me that he cares which is ridiculous as he wouldn’t have even done that when I was his client let alone now I’ve terminated. I’m still thinking about him every day. I realise now that I had really begun to see him as a parental type figure and was much more attached than I thought and feeling let down and hurt by him is just bringing back so many feelings from being a child.
I just want to forget him but I can’t.