I spoke to my Therapist today.... I eventually told her about what's been going on. Took about 40 mins to tell her but I came out and told her I'm off my meds and I'm enjoying the buzz. We had a great talk but feel I shouldn't have told her. I'm not feeling like it was a bad decision for her to be let in. Now I'm stressing about next week's session. I'm in 2 minds to tell someone else. I feel like such a loser for not even making it to 200 days on my meds since my last non compliance. Why am I an idiot re med taking. I think I genuinely do enjoy these periods of hypo mania and that I'm truly in the best place I have been in years