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Originally Posted by AllIHaveIsHope
Yeah is bad as I feel I can't cry either. I will keep the prayers coming even though I have been losing my faith because of the turmoil my lift has become - why all the suffering ?
Hope your 6th infusion tomorrow helps - are you feeling better than before you started ? I wonder how long these feelings will last, I hope it's a true cure ?
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Why all the suffering? It serves no useful purpose as far as I can see. Yeah, maybe it does make you stronger, but if that's the only way to learn to be stronger, I'd rather be weak, thank you very much.
I am definitely better. Before I was severely depressed and extremely suicidal. Now I'm happier I think. I haven't had a major depressive episode since starting the treatments and I rarely go two weeks without one, so there's that. My OCD seems better and so does my anxiety, though both are still bad enough to be disruptive.
Overall though, I have to say, I am glad I'm doing this. It may not be The Cure, but its damn close. I'll take any improvement I can get.