I saw my new T today (3rd session) and we talked about my parents. She suggested that I read the book Toxic Parents by Dr. Susan Forward. So far I've read 28 pages (shocker to me since I never read and don't enjoy it at all) and I can see myself and my parents in this book. My father is the king of invalidation and my mother...well she wasn't emotionally available--ever. So yeah...my parents fit into that toxic category.

I talked about my mom a bit...I cried a lot...haven't been able to talk about her or write about her without crying my eyes out and it's been 4 years. So I'm sure I'll spend quite a bit of time talking about my mom in future sessions.

I really think this T is a good match for me. Past T's I've had through this center have been one mismatch after another...but this one, Elaine, is a good match for me. We both are firm believers of the mind-body connection...and I told her what forms of therapies worked best for me and she's willing to work those into my treatment, unlike the past T's I've had.

I'm supposed to journal about my parents and read the book, which I'm sure I'll stick to because it's been assigned to me.

So things are starting to really look up as far as therapy goes.