Hello everyone,

I'm new to the forum. I have been diagnosed bipolar after my 2nd hospitalization 2 months ago. Before I was diagnosed depression and was hospitalized in 2013 for mania. Back then my mother was still alive so it was easier, she died in 2016.

Right now I passed the mania stage and am in the depressive stage. Very anxious and scared. I have been sleeping 2h a night for 2 days since my health insurance letter arrived saying that since I don't have a job anymore (was fired when I was in the hospital, there is nothing I can do because it was my 6 month experimental period and they can fire you without notice 2 weeks in advance). I went to see a social worker yesterday morning but he was sick. I am seeing my psychiatrist Monday morning and hope the social worker is in his office next door.

I live in another country from my remaining family (an aunt), I have nobody else. I have some true friends who are keeping me sane but I am overall scared and panicky. I keep having panic attacks and am so tired now that I am sleeping so little.

Will this go away? I need support, please. I am so scared and alone I don't know what to do with myself, I'm so depressed and alone with my dark thoughts.