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Originally Posted by Giraffe101
Hello everyone,
I'm new to the forum. I have been diagnosed bipolar after my 2nd hospitalization 2 months ago. Before I was diagnosed depression and was hospitalized in 2013 for mania. Back then my mother was still alive so it was easier, she died in 2016.
Right now I passed the mania stage and am in the depressive stage. Very anxious and scared. I have been sleeping 2h a night for 2 days since my health insurance letter arrived saying that since I don't have a job anymore (was fired when I was in the hospital, there is nothing I can do because it was my 6 month experimental period and they can fire you without notice 2 weeks in advance). I went to see a social worker yesterday morning but he was sick. I am seeing my psychiatrist Monday morning and hope the social worker is in his office next door.
I live in another country from my remaining family (an aunt), I have nobody else. I have some true friends who are keeping me sane but I am overall scared and panicky. I keep having panic attacks and am so tired now that I am sleeping so little.
Will this go away? I need support, please. I am so scared and alone  I don't know what to do with myself, I'm so depressed and alone with my dark thoughts. |
Sleep disorders and sleep issues in bp 1 patients are far, far, far more common and severe than most people realize. You need to be totally out there and up front with your doc on Monday about what is going on with the sleep. You need to shut this down now.
I haven't really slept in about 3 months. Saw my doc again yesterday. We added a big dose of Depakote plus Restoril. I slept a total of 7 hours last night, a miracle for me. BUT--tonight, I took the same new meds, went to bed at 930 and woke up at about 1120 wide awake, tachycardic, and ready to run a freaking marathon. Not sure what med change we will make. But, to emphasize how critical this is for those of us with bp, my pdoc wants daily updates over the weekend, so he can make a med change before Monday if necessary. That is the kind of urgency you need here.
Sending you positive vibes. I hope your appt. goes well.