Thanks, @seesaw. I do prefer a salary and a guaranteed check every week. I am far too anxious of a person to not have a guaranteed salary. lol. I do want to rise in position as well.... I see myself working in a company, but a larger one.

And I do see myself in leadership. I feel ready for it. I've been mentally gearing myself up for it and prepping for it by thinking: "How would I lead? How would I do things differently? How do other people lead their teams to success in other companies? These thoughts are frequently floating around my head.

And whenever I see my own company's leadership failing, I think: "how would I have approached that problem?" and "what's the best solution to that problem?"

I just need to find the right opportunity. Some days I'm ready to bolt, but bottom line is, I am willing to wait and put up with the dysfunction until the right company and job is in front of me. I am actively looking and working with recruiters, and putting feelers out... every day. So I am active at least.

And I am making friends with a Director in our company who is a female who works very closely with the CEO. She is a real fireball and I really like her a LOT. She and I are becoming chummier, and I am hoping that perhaps I could eventually rely on her to help me while I am still working there.

She's totally irreverent and is really funny too. Yesterday she anointed herself as "COO", and I told her I support her fully in that. We were joking around. Apparently she has no official job title and doesn't officially report to anyone. Well, except the CEO of course. Then she anointed me as the Head of my team. I told her how difficult it can be working as the only female with all males. She knew what I meant.

Oh who knows. I go back and forth every day on this issue. lol.