After each final session i sent a last goodbye and reasons why email to both of my Ts.

Ft has answered after 2 days, saying she respects my decision but to not bother contacing her again in any case. It hurt. She felt so detached, upset, cold, mad, hurt, disappointed... im sorry about that. I had even asked if she wanted one more session to clarify her doubts but she didnt even mention that. Thats the real end, and im upset from her reaction but i understand. But this wont change my mind and make me beg to go back... im just really hurt and disappointed. I had hoped for a better last contact.

Mt instead has tried to have me go back. I said i wouldnt unless he needed to tell me something in person but he hasnt answered yet. Not sure he will. I had asked him too if the end means no more contacts and i hope he'll at least reply to that.

Im very sad for both endings.