We won't judge you here on PC. We get it. I feel the EXACT same way you do. Not a single one of the normal people in my life, which is precious few, has a freaking clue what it is like to live with this illness. They're too worried about where their next million dollars is going to come from, or when they're going to Kauai again for the fifth time this year, or how perfect all their kids are or on and on and on. Screw them. I'll stick with the people who actually care and who actually empathize. I'd rather have one real online friend than 10 worthless "real" ones.