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Not sick in the way you've described.
A major reason for my decision to accept medication treatment for BP was when being manic led me to believe I needed to cultivate certain metaphysical powers. I would do many things (certain music, chanting, reading specific works, focusing my thoughts on rigid concepts) to push myself into honing my "skills." Push and push - and then I'd crash. When I crashed I felt physically exhausted, I mean, barely able to move...body pain, bad headache/migraine. I felt seriously unwell.
By the time I hit thirty I felt too old to play that game anymore, so I've stay on my meds.
It sounds like you believe you have a mental illness, but have not yet been diagnosed? If that's the case, please have a full physical, lab work, etc. If all is well, talk with a psychiatrist. Please be smart. Don't be seduced by the "mystery" of mental illness. Ultimately, there is nothing grand about MI.
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