I have always had this part of me. Well since about 14 that thinks horrible things are funny. I don't think these things are funny. Like horrible news stories, etc. I have also smashed a animals paw in a door even though I love animals and that is not what I wanted to do. I also have horrible inappropriate urges to touch people that I have been fighting to control since I was 8 years old. I have literally fights with my body not to act like I might hold my hand down so I dont do it. Or go to commit the action and jerk my hand back. Sometimes my whole body writhes like I am possessed fighting not to commit the action. Does anyone know what could be going on with me? Please don't move this to the dissociative Identity section or personality disorder section. I already asked there years ago. I'm looking for a subjective opinion.