Is anyone so used to rejection that you expect it to happen and if you're not rejected, you are shocked? I know this is the case for me. I've been rejected so many times that I'm used to it. Depending on how I'm rejected, it may still hurt a little but there has been times where it doesn't hurt at all. I won't feel any effect from it. And there are also times where I'm in a situation and I'm not rejected, I'll be so surprised that I'll think, "Ohh, so you're not going to reject me? Okay awesome." But even then, I don't let my guard down since I know that could easily change.

I know one of the reason I'm rejected a lot is due to how I look. Not only is a facial paralysis slightly off putting but it gives off the impression that I'm autistic or special needs. I've been called both. I've had people tell me that someone thinks I'm autistic due to my looks which is totally not true and a wrong assumption. And most recently, I had a guy ask me if I was special needs to to my facial paralysis. I told him no and it was just how I was born. He left it at that and apologized if he came off as offensive but it still makes me wonder if how I look plays a big part in me being rejected all the time.

I'm sure being an introvert doesn't help either but it probably has more to do with how I look. Anyone else get rejected so much that they are used to it? Are you shocked if you're not rejected? Has there ever been a time where you decided to let your guard down a little in hopes of a change and you realized it was a big mistake? I know I've had that happen. That's why I never let my guard down. Even towards people who call me an actual friend, I expect them to eventually reject me one day. Not only that, I've seen other people get rejected so much that I question if anyone is really a genuine friend to others for very long, if at all.

It makes me wonder if most people are friends with others in order to fulfill their agenda, whatever it may be. Being rejected a lot can lower trust towards others so that's why I have trust issues and even if someone doesn't reject me right away, I still expect it to happen anyway at some point. For me, the most likely times I appear to be rejected is when a friend or even someone who I was hoping would be friends with finds someone else to hang out with and totally forgets about me and may even treat me like I don't exist. In my opinion, that's a sign they didn't see you as a friend in the first place, no matter how much they may say they are.