Hi Rive1976,

No, I don't understand the workings of the brain either really, but I can relate a little bit in terms of my moods sometimes going completely against my will. Also, if I become very angry within myself, I get a strong desire to smash something, to destroy something, and that takes a real effort of will to prevent myself from acting out.

If it's any consolation, I believe a lot of people are fighting negative impulses in one way or another too, daily. But, no - no major insights here, just some self awarenesses, also.

It's a funny old thing, the mind, and I hope you gain some valuable insights eventually, @Rive1976.