This is gonna be long please read.The guy character from a video game I’ve been in love with just got a gf in game and I’m absolutely destroyed by it. To me it never mattered that’s he’s not real my feelings are his story he was supposed to be a loner yet they put him with a girl last minute for no reason. I’m done with game. I compare myself to this girl character I hate her I’ll never look like her. Besides that I feel like real love for me is never gonna happen. My real life experience is same I’ve always been rejected by that guys I liked and the girls they chose are just the same as the girl character. I feel like I’ll never find love first no real guy is probably gonna compare to the guy character which I hate it but that’s way I feel. Even if I found a guy they wouldn’t like me. Guys seen prejudice against women in their 30s guys my age are the worst for that I seen many hateful things online about any women over 30. Society is extremely shallow vain and I hate most people.I’m at the point where it’s better to accept I’ll be single forever I missed my chance and it’s over. The thing is I’ll always want a bf that’ll never go away. It’s hard for me to accept that. My identity has always been about the guys I like I’m lost now. I have no identity now. This character has finished me off I haven’t taken care of myself I been too busy obsessing over him all for it to amount to this. I’m depressed I don’t even want to get out of bed brush my hair nothing. I know people are tell me to get therapy but I did I’ve tried everything. Please give me advice how to deal with these feelings