I dunno why it won't let me quote, but to answer your questions. Well, I know this was majorly due to eating bad food (I mean, I didn't think it was bad, but impulsively kept eating it as well as eating other stuff that night not recommended by doc), and stress of staring at my tablet for hours on end for days, and also stress and ANXIETY from posting on various forums such as these as well as stuff at home.

I do have IBS, but I also must have a lack of impulse ccontrol or the mindset to k ow when I'm truly hungry vs nauseated or just cravi g something...or higher appetite due to antidepressants. It's not fair! I'm fighting this illness of weight gain and stress of the people who love me wanting me to lose weight for my own benefit. It's stressful when I can't please them! And I feel I have to go overboard or my furious emotions fuel me into poor dieting and exercise and too much or too little sleep/activity. Im definitely moody and was leveling out until anxiety AFTER i got sick and was being blamed for doing this to myself for my own lack of control. (Which makes me wonder if ive a binge eating disorder on top of it all or if its just others' perspective). And then the depression hit when i made others upset that i wasnt listening to them but they werent listening to me! Hearing maybe, but not listening. God i feel so alone!

I have contacted my doctor about some of these issues but haven't heard back yet. More anxiety. I'm pretty sure he's done a full workup on me, I mean I know I have an auto immune disorder, ibs, and hypothyroidism. Of course on paper, all my levels look fine. Even had hormones checked. All fine. Still, I suffer from moods and obviously my life is very stressful to me...at the same time, I'm as spoiled as a young child...but believe me, I'm reminded of that too so it's not like I'm taking advantage of it (not in my mind anyway). Sigh!

I feel like crying, but I barely had any tears, probably because I'm just so weak and getting a little hopeless/being down.