"Don't make a move without calling Smith's" (1950's Mayflower ad slogan in the Washington, D.C. area :-)

I love how you feel free to move around. I had to deliberately work on that one week; get up and move the chair, etc. so the angle was better or whatever. Toward the end of therapy, in the last year or two before termination every week T had to move her chair in the office we were in, so it was arranged closer, etc. and I got so I could help her move her chair or hold pillows she needed.

I accidentally found I could help my missing thing by being fatalistic? T was going away, nothing I could do about it, end of story. That freed me up to look ahead and plan for what I was going to do while she was away, how I was going to help myself. I think what always worked best for me was "experimenting". I'd get scientific and think of various things to try to and then look to see how the results affected me.

Once when she was gone 6+ weeks, I wrote daily in a little blue college exam book and the end of each week, mailed that book off (had 6 :-) to her office, picturing her returning form the trip and reading them a day or two before seeing me next. Another time I paid a whole lot of attention to each day so I could write down the one, best thing that I'd "learned" or experienced that day, something that had helped me. But generally I found focusing on my life instead of on T's being away helped a lot.

Because I had trouble with the day of the session each week, I continued some rituals I'd started; I had a long drive to get to T and always took a handful of large, individually-wrapped lifesavers and ate them driving to/from therapy and it was a fun challenge to see if I could make them last until i got home in the evening. Inevitably I'd eat too many going to therapy or I'd eat them too fast coming home, LOL. But when T went away I would grab a handful on my way to work that day and treat that day like I always did; eating them on the way to work and on the way home. I'd "recognize" that day was special to me and hold my T's "place" that way.

Instead of resisting T's going away, go with the flow and plan for it?