@TheLostOneBeing Thanks for your reply. Actually, my own gender-identity-related issues go back so far that some of my earliest childhood memories involve them. Yet I've always lived an outwardly more-or-less male life. (For most of my life it never occurred to me I had any choice.)

This all begins to get very complicated very quickly. But there was a period of time, around a dozen years ago or so when I first became aware of the "transgender community" so to speak, that I became convinced I must have been transgender all my life. But, as I have gotten further away from that "watershed" period, I've come to believe I was, perhaps, not really transgender; but that my gender-identity issues were just one aspect of a broader mental illness. Of course the reality is I'll never really know what came first for sure. There is a sense in which it is sort-of a "chicken & egg" kind of question.

I'm not a mental health professional myself. But, based on what I read in your post, it doesn't sound to me as though you have gender dysphoria. This all sounds more like, perhaps, an anxiety or OCD kind of thing. That is just a personal opinion though. I presume you've received some sort of diagnosis from your psychologist.