I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm not the only one with issues. Maybe I'm 'contagious'...or maybe all my mood swings are really getting to him. Or maybe it's just him. Or maybe I'm just reading too many psych articles....

But I was just realizing -

- He sleeps very little, and often has trouble sleeping. Averages maybe 5 or 6 hours, often more like 3 or 4 and he claims he's not tired.
- He has frequent displays of anger/rage sometimes inappropriately mad at something not that big of a deal.
- One time he punched a co-worker and got fired...
- He doesn't eat very much - almost nothing during the day, but then sometimes he pigs out late at night. He almost never eats breakfast and doesn't eat lunch very often either. Lives on caffeine.
- He's actually slightly under-weight. About 135 pounds.
- He's always on the go, has lots of energy, can't sit still
- He had ADHD when he was a kid, was on Ritalin (1980's..)
- He never wants sex.
- I don't know the whole story about this...but about 9 years ago he had some kind of epileptic seizure kind of thing, just a one time deal, but it made it so he couldn't get a CDL driver's license. I don't remember exactly why. This happened before I met him.
- I found out...in a round-about way....that his mother is Bipolar.
- He hasn't spoken to anyone in his family for nearly 15 years. Up until last summer, we lived very close to all of them. He didn't even go to his grandfather's funeral. And he won't tell me the whole story of why he's estranged from his family.

Ok...so now that I write this all down, I'm feeling soo guilty. I'm not the only one who needs help. No wonder he can't deal with me. I'm sure all my crap doesn't help him at all.

So...long story short....in my desperate attempt to get appointments, I just so happen to have two appointments with two different Psych Nurses on the 24th.

Hmm....maybe I should let him go to one of them?

Or...would he be upset if I suggested that. I don't know.

Now I just feel bad.